Today I got an email from the school nurse telling me that Maddison is angry with her meter lately. All I could think was "OH NO...HERE WE GO AGAIN." Last year Maddison had this same issue. Often. She goes in to the nurse for feeling low and isn't. Then she bangs her meter on the counter telling it how "stupid" and "wrong" it is. The she insists on using the control solution. It comes back fine. Then she insists on re-checking her sugar, only to see about the same number. She is just trying to take care of herself...but somehow I think the nurse feels Maddison is "faking a low" feeling to get out of class. First of all....Maddison is a very shy, passive and quiet child at school. If she is upset with her meter enough to lash out....she is REALLY frustrated. I cant say I blame her. Diabetes is frustrating. When you feel one way and your meter says another.....it leaves you with ALOT of different feelings and questions....
I better re-check that number, that can't be right! Am I dropping? Is the meter really wrong? Should I recheck in 15 minutes? Am I going higher? What is wrong with me? Why do I feel low if I'm not!!?? FRUSTRATING. Also in this email today the nurse stated.....
"I hope this doesn't become a habit"
To which, I wanted to SCREAM in response....What the HELL do you mean by THAT?!!
This year is supposed to be different. Maddison is HAPPY to go to school each morning. She is confident. She enjoys her teacher and her peers. I know last year she struggled with the school angries.....I think sometimes she DID go in for an extra finger poke just to get out of class. (because her teacher was a crazy chick!)Maybe not. I know sometimes at home Maddison feels low in the 200-220 range. Funny thing, I do too. Often I feel low and see a 208ish number. Why does that range feel like a low?
I'm a bit offended by the nurse saying this today. She probably didnt mean it the way it sounded...I know......I'm frustrated for Maddison's sake. Otherwise, we have been doing GREAT. Lets hope this shall pass.
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