The night before last, I only slept for about 3 hours, because I decided I HAD to stay up till 2am and get our JDRF video completed for this year. YIKES. Not good. I am a sleep needer!! By the evening hours last night, I was so mean I couldn't stand myself. Mostly I was irritated because the video I worked SO hard on didnt save the last time, so I have to re-do alot of it!!! Nothing in our house ever works right!! The computer was painfully slow too, which didn't help. I was trying to upload the video to post on our JDRF page....wouldnt work. Long, aggravating story short....its still not done thanks to technical difficulties. So, I climbed in bed entirely frustrated last night, hoping to catch up on some zzzzz's. Of course, Maddison was high, 248, and I'd need to wake in a few hours to make sure she's come down. I was low at 66 with .6 active so I munched some raisins, and then fell asleep!
I did for some reason wake up an hour after Maddison's correction, she was a bit lower, but I still needed to set my alarm for 2 hours later. I never woke up. I leapt out of bed at 7:20 this morning!!! LATE!! I had multiple alarm times set last night but I slept with my alarm too close to my bed and must have turned them all off! ACK! Good news, Maddison was okay at 170 and I slept for 8 hours STRAIGHT for the first time since this Diabetes monster came along!!!
I still feel guilty though! All the "WHAT IF's" are running through my mind. The night prior Maddison was 54 at 10pm.....WHAT IF she was again last night and I missed it!? WHAT IF WHAT IF WHAT IF WHAT IF. I'm tired of the WHAT IF's!! Oh well....I feel like a new person today! I'm not even a tad tired!
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