Tuesday, April 27, 2010

The answer

Recently a coworker was questioning why I still call myself sleep deprived. After 3 years of Diabetes I should have Maddison "all figured out" right? Truth is, lately I lack the ability to even find my words. I'm stuck in the sleep deprivation haze. One night Maddison will be low. The next night she's high. I awoke several times last week trembling in a pool of sweat with my own BS under 50. Of course, highs followed my lows too. Its draining. Last week I took two days off work so I could sleep a straight 4 hours from 9am until 1pm. Sleeping in the afternoon while the kids are at school. It was my last resort. Something I had to do. Diabetes is kicking me to the curb lately, both Madison's and my own. So the answer is, even though you may figure out Diabetes today, tomorrow is a new day with entirely new rules.

Read AMY's blog about sleep deprivation. Her G-O-R-G-E-O-U-S baby girl was dx'd with T1 at the age of 9 months. I can only imagine. She also designs, makes and sells the CUTEST pump packs! Tonight Amy had the words I wish I could find when trying to explain WHY T1 parents suffer from the sleep deprivation haze........

4 comments:

Scott K. Johnson said...

No words are needed! Just parenting is exhausting, add in a couple cases of diabetes and you've got a perfect storm for fatigue!

connie said...

You are right...diabetes changes it up on you from one day to the next! I wish it were as easy as some people like to believe :( If only they really knew what life with d is like.

((HUGS))...here's hoping we all get alittle extra shut eye, someday :)

Penny said...

Sleep deprived 4 1/2 years. At the last endo appointment the doctor suggested we cut out the nighttime checks. I just looked at him.

Why do I make myself into a zombie? The same reasons you stated. Diabetes doesn't sleep. It doesn't go away just because Riley is asleep.

Last night, he got insulin twice because of highs. The night before, he was 54 at 4 AM. Those reasons are enough to make me continue to get up in the middle of the night.

Laura said...

you can always come here and tell us 'cause we totally get it.

Hugs friend!! Thinking about you.