No words

I can't get the words out that I feel inside. This has been the most exhausting and emotional 9 days anyone could imagine. To see someone you love suffering is the worst. I just dont know. My Dad is expected to be on the Vent for several days, which means he is still sedated. I just want my ornery Dad back. All they keep saying is how "severe" his pneumonia is. All I keep thinking is, I dont want to hear the S word. Sepsis. We can fight this Pneumonia. If anyone can, its my Dad. Regardless of all the other issues. I'm pleading at this point that S doesnt take over. I'm numb. I'm terrified. I can't believe someone could live through such a surgery only to go downhill. And suffer for days on end.......