Thursday, December 30, 2010

On this day last year

Here come the last days of 2010! I should be thinking about personal goals I'd like to meet in 2011, but I'm stuck looking back to last year at this time, a time I had so much hope in my heart, yet so much fear and worry for my Dad's recovery. My Dad had his Quintuple Bypass a year ago yesterday. Words could never completely describe the following 24 days in CCU, followed by our fight to get my Dad to Hospice and discontinue life support. Today, I'm haunted. I'm drawn to going back through my blog posts, remembering the days as they come.....

I think I do this to help myself remember that we made the right decision in the end. I think I need to reflect back to move forward, because this time of year will forever be a tough time for me....

A year ago today

5 comments:

htimm=) said...

((hugs)) Kelly, you have been through so much this year and though the pain of loss will always be with you, I hope you find peace in it. I pray that 2011 is a wonderful year for you!

connie said...

I'm so sorry for your pain, Kelly. I really can't imagine the sadness that must come over you as you look back on that difficult time.

I'm thinking of you and your family as you begin to look towards 2011 and I hope that this year will bring with it much joy.

(((hugs)))

Wendy said...

Oh, Kelly...

The nightmare that follows is heartbreaking.

You were so strong, so courageous, and such an advocate for your father.

I know he's incredibly proud of the amazing person you are.

Reyna said...

I am sorry Kelly. It is definitely going to be a rough ride as it is nearing the anniversary of a difficult time in your life. I am thinking of you. I wish I could reach through the computer and give you a big hug...or climb through the computer screen and go hang out at your house and sit on your couch and just listen to you talk about your father.

Love to you.

Pam said...

I'm so sorry this is a tough time for you. I'm wishing you have a happy and peaceful new year. hugs.